Fire, Fenrir and God

Its like being on the edge of a dream, knowing the dream is a dream and that you are asleep. The simple act of waking up seems easy, just needs to be willed. I see him and recognize him. I give him a face and a name. My volition and desire for life. The ever hungry beast that cannot be tamed. What a horrible life when that wolf goes hungry and sick. Like a dog left dying in the streets. But even skinny, sick and weak dogs gather in packs. They find the food they need and will eat anything to survive. But this beast goes much further when fed and strong. He is like fire. Fire will burn eternal with enough fuel. From a simple match to the stars in the sky. Fire was started and as life willed it, the fire became light that stretches the universe.

Do not let yourself become closed to the will of the beast. This beasts name is much greater than you think. Its energy is everywhere and could be taken as divine will. Or the will of god. God's will is your will, not the place which you open yourself for the puppeteers hand. You are a conduit for gods will but not a puppet of it. This is an active existence that is created in front of you not within or behind you. Do not internalize and hope that divine will once you have burn away and deleted so much of yourself that you are a empty husk, a willing vessel. You are making yourself open for other beings and influences not God's will.

This universal energy needs to be forgotten about to be obtained. Do not align your life so that you are the perfect place for it to be. You are a child of the universe not it's mother. You will not draw the universe into you by talking sweetly with it and giving it hugs and kisses. You can do that to make yourself feel good but the universe will not flow into you just because you hug trees. The universe loves all its children but flows through the children that do something and follow their own unique expression of volition and desire of life. Living these to their fullest is the true nature of the universe. Now forget that the universe is your mother and that you are the universe. You are direct extensions of it. Now when you boggle yourself down and forget your fire and spirit you start to die. Like cells in the body you will take your way and the living cells will move you out of the way so you can be replaced and disposed of in due time. Or maybe you will be ripped apart and used for the living cells needs. Either way your existence is no longest needed or others will use you to ensure their existence. When the cell is dead its dead. That one little blip in time cannot be recreated consciously. Luckily you are different and live much longer than the cell. When you forget your fire and die inside you can be reborn by allowing what died to be taken out like trash or be scrapped and reused in part with new living things. Whatever the process may be the old you will die and a new you will be born. Whats so amazing and beautiful is that you will remember all of it and gain great insight and awareness of life around you. Like someone finally showed you how the pattern goes. For years you looked at it and couldn't make sense of this series of events and there timing. It seemed like a chaotic mess but now you see a grand and very precise pattern. One so large its hard to fully grasp and may even enlighten you that this pattern when looked at may end suddenly before completion. This is because you are about to see this pattern extends your experience beyond physical life.

Lunar Goddess

Find me above the waves that you have always know.
Within the sky that is made of lights you have never seen.
Find me in a part between here and then.
Between the sheets and across the planes.
Do not open you're eyes or else you will miss me.
See when you feel and feel what you see.
Taste and smell the moment.
Feel the shape.
If you want to dance you can fly.
And if you want to fly you will soar.
If you want to swim you will run.
And if you want to climb you will jump.
Feel the heart that beats inside beat where you are and where you want to be.
All the dots connect and suddenly you are there.
And suddenly you are here with me.
You don't see my smile but you know I'm happy to see you.
I've waited, and I've watched.
Loving you, every step of the way.